Staying motivated takes work

Like, a lot of work.

This past semester I went through some ups and downs. And by some a mean tons of ups and even more downs. For a while I was convinced I was finally going to start a company, and a few days later I thought I'd never actually get to point in my life where I'd have the guts and willingness to actually start one. For a while I thought I might get a 4.0 for the semester (HA!), then I was convinced I'd be lucky to get just one A.

I guess what I'm saying is that my semester was very all over the place.

Sure, it's normal to go through different phases in life, but mine were incredibly dramatic. I did do a lot of soul-searching during the semester, that I'm still doing into the summer. I have no idea where my life will take me, but I know that I'll never give up on being successful.

What I've learned over the past few months, and what I'm still learning, is that sometimes you just have to take a step back from everything and reevaluate where you are in life. I realized I'm not the same person I was just a year ago, and that I'm drastically different from the person I was two years ago. While I believe that change is good, and that we should all grow as people, you should never lose your passions, you should never lose who you are fundamentally.

I had a moment where I realized that I had to change my life, that I had to get back to who I was before, or at least become closer to myself. I wouldn't call it rock bottom or anything, but it was definitely a low. I needed that low, I needed something to push me back on track. Now, I'm not completely back on track, but I'm a hell of a lot closer than I was. I'm starting to regain my passions, to get the drive I need to study (even though it's currently summer), to delve into business ideas, to read all the books on my list, and to plan the trips I've so desperately wanted to take.

I'm not sure where I started to get off track, or what kept pushing me further and further away from myself, but I'm glad it did. It sucked at the time, but I'm growing to appreciate who I am much more because of it.

If you ever find yourself off track don't be afraid to take a step back and really look at your life. I'll write a little more on how I'm working to get back to my 'normal' motivated self later this week.